Plenty of people try to make you feel guilty for not functioning well regardless of your mental illness. What they don’t know is that you already feel guilty for not doing well. Not succeeding at being normal. There’s a guilt from mental illness that isn’t talked about enough. Mine is strongest when my depression and/or … More The Guilt from Mental Illness
Having depression and anxiety hit at the same time is like trudging through a heavy fog split by lightning. Only the fog is physically heavy as well as thick, and the lightning strikes you each time, sending roaring energy through you to the ground. Casting your nerves and mind into a jittering frenzy and leaving … More Depression & Anxiety: A Heavy Fog Split by Lightning
I’m really struggling to wake up lately. And to stay awake afterward. I don’t know if it’s depression or something else (are there illnesses that only have exhaustion as a symptom?). When I get up, it’s like moving through a fog or wearing weights. Like every motion is extra hard to complete, and I have … More Exhaustion: Depression or Something Else?
Self-help books are such a huge industry that it’s hard to see them as anything but a money-making ploy. Partially because so many of them are bad. Really bad. To the point where buying self-help books always feels like taking a risk. Like there’s 90% chance I’m throwing my money away. Or higher. But there … More Taking a Risk with Self-Help Books: The Depression Project
As the tide of my depression ebbs and flows, I noticed that I have a hard time answering generic greetings that include, “How are you?” I don’t want to lie, so instead of “Ok” or “Fine,” I tend to say, “I’m tired.” Because while not the full truth, it is true. I don’t say, “I’m … More “I’m Tired”
I had another unproductive weekend – the kind where it’s a struggle to do anything except read (ah, reading, my depression default). Now, Sunday night, I’m forcing myself to write this for Monday as a last-minute sop towards accomplishing something. Even knowing that, yes, writing something is a sort of win against the depression, it … More Another Unproductive Weekend
Depression isn’t satisfied with riding shotgun, and while it’s one of the worst back-seat-drivers I’ve ever encountered, that’s still better from letting it have the wheel. Unfortunately, keeping depression from driving isn’t easy. 8 Tactics to Control or Reduce Depression (for Me) I haven’t found any long-term solutions so far (nothing that cures it forever … More Keeping Depression from Driving
I was doing ok, making progress. Then, depression hit hard. Numbing exhaustion alternating with crying jags hard. Just mustering the energy and motivation to write a stupidly short blog post is draining and difficult, and I hate that. It feels like every time I’m getting a good habit in place (whether it’s exercise, eating healthy, … More Depression Hit Hard This Week